My Emotions: dump in blender, press frappe.

 I have so far cried about:
-My un-gracious rebukes of M and B
-How foolish I am to care more about my weight than my sins
-Will I ever communicate to my family and helpers my goals for their help as I’m not supposed to drive or lift things this week (how do you remind people without nagging?)
-Feeling weak, overtired, and achy.

I have marveled at:
-How much the boys like to hold baby K.
-How sweet her head smells
-How fast my husband is at cleaning, fixing, sorting, organizing and encouraging
-How did I ever cook meals and homeschool the last time we had a baby?  I looked it up in my journal, there are no entries from M’s birth until 9 months later,  maybe I can figure it out from photos and the videos D took
-How kind and loving and generous our church and neighbors have been.
-How I really do like the color pink after all

I feared:
-Weird ways everyone in the family could die
-Company coming without me having time to dress
-that we will never finish the math book this year in homeschool


I have enjoyed:
-The deaconess food!
-Spending time with DH, B, M, K and my Mom
-Laughing as K does the same things her brothers did, looking comically dainty as she does them.
-the funny customized lyrics DH comes up with to pop songs when he walks the halls with K.
-Seeing the Lego and tinker toy models the boys have made this week
-Finishing  "The Small Woman," and starting "The Scarlet Pimpernel" with B in our bedtime reading

2 Replies to “My Emotions: dump in blender, press frappe.”

  1. Amen to all of this! It's all so fresh in my mind (P being only 7 weeks) that I can only agree over and over. Preschoolers and Peace had a great post on how to survive homeschooling with a newborn recently… maybe it will remind you of how you did it last time.

    Blessings!

    Annie

  2. Great list :) I love finding small blessings when I feel overwhelmed. Your baby is beautiful.